It’s funny really…

It’s funny really…

You spend the majority of your teens/early twenties worrying about getting pregnant but when you’re ready to get knocked up it suddenly becomes incredibly difficult.

Maybe you popped a pill daily? Perhaps you took an injection in your butt or the coil in your hoo-haa? Or if you’re like me, you got three implants, (one resulting in surgery after it was broken in half during a bit of rough and tumble) and struggled with the side effects but put up with them for 14 years because you desperately didn’t want to create a little mini-me.

But life changes. All of a sudden you find yourself settled down, married, with a little house and two beautiful cats and the topic of babies crops up. Your implant gets removed, you whip your coil out whilst sipping on wine in the bath (true story) and cancel your pill prescription to prepare your body hormonally.

And then…

Nothing happens.

It’s a tough gig. 20 months of maybes quickly turning in to 20 months of not this time. Promising friends and family that you’re waiting for the right time and it’ll happen when it happens but you’re ok about it. Listening to countless people tell you that it will happen when you least expect it. Telling you to relax and enjoy married life. Everyone means well, you know that deep inside so you smile, agree and quickly change the subject.

I know I’m not alone on this journey. I know there are other people who are on a very similar path but for some reason we just don’t openly talk about it. I wanted to start this blog mainly so I have somewhere to document the highs and the lows but also so we can open up a dialogue about fertility, infertility and the bits in between.

Maybe it’ll happen next month, maybe it’ll be next year or maybe it’ll be in 5 years time. Maybe it’ll happen naturally, maybe we’ll need help along the way or maybe we’ll have to think of other ways of extending our family. Either way I’m ready for this. Together we will tackle this head on.

Rest assured, I’m okay. I promise…


5 thoughts on “It’s funny really…

  1. Wow I would never have know you were on this tough journey, you are one strong lady . This is amazing that you can put your feelings into words and share this tough journey. Biggest of hugs

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  2. Nik, I love that you’ve started this blog as you write so eloquently. I would never have guessed that you were on this journey and I can’t wait to see how your story unfolds. Sending big hugs, you got this girl! X

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  3. You made me cry, I love you so much and I know you’ll be an amazing mum and Morgan a great father! Anything I can do to help or just to listen to I’m there. You’re both at the start of a journey and who knows where it will lead but you truly do have the best companion with you and he will look after you every step of the way. Love you loads princess and I can’t tell you just how proud I am of both of you, lots of love from mumma xxx

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  4. I just wanted to send massive hugs to both of you. Such a beautiful inspiring and brave decision to share your inner most feelings with the world. 💕💕💕

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