There’s a fine line between treating yourself to a few dresses from ASOS and a full blown shopping spree resulting in needing to remortgage the house just to pay off the credit card.
This month I may have tiptoed over that line.
See below for an accurate representation of myself this month. (Just minus the designer bags, high heels, hairless legs, clear skin, beautiful shiny hair etc.)
I jest. However, I did splurge on a few pieces of jewellery, far too many dresses and a fair bit of makeup. All the ‘necessities’ in life some* might say.
But that’s exactly what it was. A ‘necessity’ in terms of balancing my mental health. I’m guilty of not opening up and sharing how I feel. I’ll make a comment, laugh it off and move on because in my mind I’m conscious that there’s other people with bigger issues. So rather than bang on about my problems I treat myself to a little bit of retail therapy and start looking for holidays. Always have done, probably always will do. If it works, it works.
I start questioning what problems I really have. All our test results are flooding back with no serious issues, work is just tickety-boo, I have some great friends and family around me. Life is good. Right?
It’s a tough pill to swallow when you realise you have nothing to actually complain about but you still feel a little down. I’m good at recognising in myself when I’m going through periods like this. I keep myself busy, make plenty of plans for days off, look to organise things to look forward to like little holidays or city breaks or just simply order myself a new pretty dress to wear at the weekend.
All things considered, life is great. The reality is I’m just not good at accepting this is just something I can’t have right now and I have absolutely no control over it.
So, if anyone needs me for the next few days I’m going to be a little busy organising my wardrobe, twirling around in front of the mirror in my new outfits, cutting up my credit cards and hiding all the shopping bags from my husband.
Shhh, mum’s the word.
*Not my husband. He would not say that at all.
According to Mind, about one in four people in the UK will experience a mental health problem each year.
If you want to talk to someone immediately, the NHS mental health helpline page includes organisations you can call for help, such as Anxiety UK and Bipolar UK.
The Samaritans helpline is on hand 24 hours a day and 365 days a year, for people who need to talk to someone in confidence.
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